BUT WHATEVER.
So anyway, I'm a senior in high school. It's all well and good and all that...except I'm 0% prepared to be an actually member of society. I'M NOT JOKING. You know when you're a freshman and all your friends are already stacking up on AP classes and crud? Well...I didn't do that. I took easy classes. So unless I go to a music college, college seriously isn't a choice. Especially because I'm broke, because instead of getting one of those silly jobs, I played video games. Yeah. But hey, someone had to save Hyrule.
So other than college, what can I possibly do? Work at Disney World! Yup. So that solves that problem of course. I guess. And it's really exciting too, because I spent YEARS telling people I was going to do something else. I knew I was going to sing somewhere. I mean, since it's the absolute only thing I can do, I kinda assumed that was God's plan. I slipped up when I spent 18 years telling God what I was going to do and how I was going to do it. Which is always a good idea, NOT. It's only when I started praying about what I was supposed to do that Disney started looking more and more possible. I'm sincerely hoping that I at least kind of understand His plan now, but whatever it is that He has for me, it's so much better than what I want to do.
So that's all falling into place, and it's AWESOME. But there's still that other thing I mentioned back at the top...boys. Oh gosh. My favorite subject. Ya know, it's starting to get a little tiresome. I always do everything wrong. Someone once told me that I've just never been with anyone because...well...I come off really strong. REALLY STRONG. I'm sure nobody has any idea what they're talking about. I know a few guys who aren't talking to me because I was incredibly obvious and insane. I don't blame them. I blatantly disobeyed God and mostly chased guys who didn't love Him. Sure there were some Christians in there, but they still weren't for me. Have I found anyone else? OH MY GOSH I'M NOT TELLING IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!! Even if I did, the only difference this time is I'm not broadcasting it, and I'm not chasing him around. It's creepy. Anyway, I swear there's a point to all of this. I'm getting there, I promise.
Okay, my point. My rambling is over and I'm almost done and I totally haven't done much talking about the title of this whole post. The one thing that pulls all of this mess together. Guys, I could have spared my self tons of disappointment and heartache if I just spent the past 18 years pursuing a relationship with God instead if planning my future as a rock star and chasing boys. I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior when I was 6 years old, I should be a lot closer to Him by now than I am. The point of this is if I focused on what I needed to and trusted God to bring everything else into my life when He planned to, I wouldn't be where I am. I wouldn't be a mess.
What's the beauty of it all? God loves me. He's never given up on me. Not once, and now that I'm finally starting to give Him control, things are falling into place. God's plan is better than ours, and if He's telling us not to do things it's because what He has is just so much better. I'm gonna remember that! I'll probably still screw up, hopefully it's just less than usual.
So that's it. Remember, God made you special, and He loves you very much!! Yeah, that was a total Veggie Tales reference.
So here's "While I'm Waiting" from Fireproof, because it fits and Fireproof was an awesome movie.
